not today

boy : Not now!

girl : What?

boy : I…not now…I…I’m not that into you…today..

girl : What?!

boy : Don’t laugh! I’m serious!

So she left. She left the room, she left his world, she left…him.

stupid plans

Sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you.
It’s like being invincible… Your whole life is ahead of you, and you have big plans to find your perfect match,the one that completes you, the perfect job, the perfect life , the true happyness. But as you get older, you realize it’s not always that easy. It’s not until the end of your life that you realize that the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the end, when you’re looking back instead of forward, you want to believe you made the most of what life gave you, you want to believe you’re leaving something good behind… you want it all to have mattered and suddenly you don’t care about your stupid plans.

maybe

I’m a freak! I cry a lot and for no reason. I’m scared of things, of things I imagine. I freak out every time I think of something that might happen or if someone tries to come  too close to me.

I’m dreaming too much and I’m living in books and movies. My life might be a bedtime story without a happy end, but it’s still my life. I’m closed in my world ‘cause  it’s the only place where I’m truly accepted. So maybe I’m not a creep.

Or is it me? Am I the one who dosen’t understand the laws of nature? Am I the problem? Is it possible?  How should I know? Why should I care ? Maby I’m scared because I’m feeling so alone. I know I have you, I know that you are standing next to me , I can feel you touching me  and kissing my lips…but darling..I can tell that you aren’t quite here…